The horizon

I have to start making my tuna casserole now, it's almost done installing. Soon I'll have to put the second disc in when it prompts me. By then I'll be in full screen mode, I'll see nothing but my kitchen, sorry. I put a shortcut to Life on my desktop, it's secondary to all my other fickle programs. It takes a while to load and sometimes I have to go clean up some cookies to keep me on task or I'll forget what I was doing.

You should try this neat site, it's illegal but it's not easy for the government to catch you. I downloaded my tuna casserole from there, but you can get many other things including an education, a shopping mall, a mom or dad or anything else you may want to add to your Life. It's fun, there's a lot of mods and you can essentially be anyone you want to be.

Oh, second disc!

Bye!

Original post entry: When do I put the fabric softener in?




Translated: I'm thinking about playing Dungeons and Dragons online. But only if it's just as fun as the paper and pencil version.

I'm bored and frustrated and I want passion and music and I need to read.
I miss school, I miss WoW, I miss being amazing at my job. I miss having something I could work towards.

I miss running too.

New computer, really good.
Still selling my laptop.
Mara thinks that people in Mozambique aren't typical of drinking Coca Cola.
Playing LoL, considering playing HoN.
Missing John.
New job at Staples rawks my sawks.

I'm selling my old laptop... We've been through some good times and it's done it's best to satisfy my gaming needs.

My new desktop PC (courtesy of my sweet, sweet boyfriend) looks like this:

1 x Intel Core 2 Quad Q8400 Quad Core Processor LGA775 2.66GHZ 1333FSB 4MB Retail Box
1 x Gigabyte EP43-UD3L ATX LGA775 P43 FSB 1600 OC 1PCI-E 2PCI DDR2 SATA2 HD Sound GBLAN Motherboard
1 x Corsair XMS2 TWIN2X4096-6400C5 4GB DDR2 2X2GB PC2-6400 DDR2-800 CL 5-5-5-18 240PIN Memory Kit
1 x XFX Radeon HD 5770 850MHZ 1G
1 x Compucase 6C28B ATX Case Black 4X5.25 2X3.5 4X.3.5INT W/ Front USB & Audio No PS
1 x OCZ ModXStream Pro 700W ATX 20/24PIN SLI Ready Modular Cables 135mm Fan 80PLUS Power *IR-$5.46*
1 x Samsung 2343BWX 23IN Widescreen LCD Monitor 2048X1152 50000:1DC 5ms VGA DVI
Environmental Fee $9.00 Per Item
1 x Microsoft Windows 7 Home Premium Edition 64BIT DVD OEM
1 x Western Digital Caviar GP 750GB
1 x Samsung SH-S223B/BEBE 22X DVD+-RW SATA DVD Writer Black OEM
1 x Logitech Classic Keyboard 200 Spill Resistant USB Black Keyboard


AKA: Pretty darn amazing =)

Buying L4D2 and TF2 and DOD:S once I get it yayaya.....

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I hate this laptop. I had stuff written down and then just POOF!

Whatever! TL;DR version:

Work at Staples, Greg's a sucker.


Hair-wash cycle day #2. Next hair-wash day: November 4th after school.

Wow best weekend ever.

I am NOT going to work at Domino's for another consecutive Halloween while everyone I know has a blast. I am NOT going to be responsible and I am NOT going to work today or tomorrow or even Sunday or ever again. Brian says I can do all these things (or not do them) if I promise to get a job today.

That means.... I'm getting a job today, nothing is stopping me. I worked late into the night on my resume and several different cover letters. I also applied to futureshop online, they have a huge sign that says "Now Hiring!" If they don't hire me I might throw a torch at that sign and tell them all to go to hell. "Dear Futureshop Director of Human Resource: If you are reading my LJ, I won't actually throw a torch at your sign, but if it makes you more inclined to hire me... then YES I AM GOING TO THROW A TORCH AT YOUR SIGN. MAYBE THE OLYMPIC TORCH, I DON'T KNOW!"

I did my hair and kind of did my make-up... It's hard when I'm all out of contacts. I'm going to ask the LJ group for my city if they know if there's anyone that's willing to hire me. Then I'll be back hopefully before 1 or 2pm.


Oh, and Cam got recruited by the army finally and he's gone gone gone.

Never got around to posting those pictures~

—Products and techniques used—

B&B Gentle Shampoo
B&B Tonic Lotion
B&B Leave-in/Rinse-out Conditioner
B&B Straight Lotion
B&B Thickening Spray
—Blow-dried with paddle brush, sweeping around head and alternating bang placement—
—Flat-ironed in layers, light on frames, bangs and uppermost layer—
B&B Grooming Cream

Blow-dried, no flat ironing yet:




Flat ironed:



Abstract-I-Look-Better-Than-I-Really-Look picture:

I'm going to Denny's later tonight.. or I guess early tomorrow morning. I hope that means what I think it means. Or maybe it's just because it's less effort than fighting me.

Brian almost left Domino's today with me, he almost quit right there on his close shift. That was exciting. But even /I/ didn't want him to do that, because the fear of losing my job is not as scary as the fear of both of us losing our job. Maybe when we get our new jobs. Any new jobs would be better than this~

The thing about Brian is.. I really like him and it scares me.

1. I almost always don't like his music the first time around. But purely because I'm interested, I actually listen to it enough that I love it, actually LOVE it.



This song seemed so bland but now I just can't get enough of it. I even downloaded it to put it on my his iPod so I can listen to it while I listen to all my his our other favourite songs.

Anyways, in three hours I'm going to Denny's and then we're walking home at 3-3:30 am. Is there a length of love?

Pancake time,

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Now that I'm back on LJ, life has seemed intensified. My co-workers can have a conversation and I'll think its really dramatic or hilarious when in reality its completely normal.

( For instance: a battle of the bands. )

Anyways...

Last night on my dreaded Friday night close, John called to order pizza for his long expected Costume party. After my meltdown on Thursday, Brian knew how much I wanted to see John and all those guys. So Brian offered to stay at the store until 1:00 am, at which point when I returned he would leave and I would close the store. This was good news.

I arrived and gave hugs (things I don't give out often to people I'm not dating or blood-related to) and we had a really good time. I called Brian to see how it was going. Cam answered the phone.

"What are you doing there?" I asked.

"It's a long story..."

Brian came onto the phone: "Hey, you can just stay there, Cam's here now."

"Why is here there?"

"It's a long story, I'll tell you later. I got to go, bye."

I came back to the store at 1 anyways because I didn't want to leave everything on Brian for the close, but he disappeared as soon as I got there anyways, leaving me with Cam to help until close.

Cam's life is hectic right now, I feel sorry for him. When I bawwwww'd to Brian about cashing in my friends, I didn't realize there are some people in this world who don't even have their own Brian to baw at. Cam is one of these people.

Cam moved here from Ontario, abandoning his career with the Canadian Army, to live with his girlfriend. Cam needs a lot of structure and motivation to do things, but once he gets these things he's a class-A worker. In life, however, there is no guide or manual, and Cam was kind of stranded. Because of this, when he moved to Victoria he hadn't set up a job to take the place of the military, he assumed something would just show up (like so many of us have done before) and he waited until it did. His girlfriend got fed up after (what we assume was) a long period of unemployment, and then Cam became single and alone in a city without a job or an apartment.

Luckily, Cam is an agreeable guy who most people get along with. He bunked up with his friends and has been friend-hopping (free of charge for rent) for the last three months. Last night his last friend kicked him out over a disagreement ("Hey, you got money, buy your own toothpaste!"). When he came to Domino's he thought might find help there, but Brian was unwilling to give.

Brian is one of those people who has worked all his life to achieve the goals he has set. He doesn't disapprove of people who have no goals or if they do, don't work towards them... but he'll be damned if those same people come to him for help when they haven't even helped themselves.

Unfortunately for Brian, I understand how it is to be in a rut (thanks John for letting me live at your place ;_;), and I offered him our place for the night the first chance I got.

Well, Brian made sure he was gone in the morning.

It's sad though. Cam doesn't even realize right now that when people tell him to "find an apartment" they don't mean "walk around and write down the numbers of vacant buildings," instead they mean, "find a roommate on Craigslist or Usedvictoria."

He really does need a helping hand, he's been alone in this city for a whole year and no one has opened his eyes yet!

Tragic story... on the bright side I am now on day 3 of this hair-wash cycle. Tonight, you're getting cleaned, hair!

Hair: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~!

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Disclaimer: I'm experimenting with LJ layouts... Being a paid member doesn't seem very rewarding anymore, they all kind of stink. I'm enjoying the wide variety of userpics and I forgot how crazy the LJ community is with making userpics. This one I'll use when people give me the "you're a very weird person" look.


I recovered from last night, I don't know about my neighbour. I can't believe how much RebirthRO meant to me. Thinking back I've never been happy when being banned or forced to quit. I know, "Who is happy when they're banned or forced to quit?!" But back in that time a lot of RebirthRO players were relieved to finally be banned. It was more of a struggle to wake up everyday knowing that your friends and (online) family were being tortured by some tyrannical loser. He's a big fish in a small pond and this blog entry proves it. Once he comes out in the ocean, fucking firemen have to help him up.

What this blog entry is really about is my hair. Before I started dating Brian I went on a hair-diet. People get greasy hair when they over-dry it. You can over-dry your hair by using harsh products like drugmart shampoos, or you could just be using your shampoo too often. I bought Bumble & Bumble's Curl Conscious line (read: $400~) and their Gentle line and their Straight line (read another: $6-700~). And, following my doctor's orders (Hair Stylist Carly), I only washed my hair every three or four days. I started dating Brian in the middle of my training phase, where my hair would still get greasy on day three, and needless to say, that ended my hair-diet. I began shampooing it everyday and styling it everyday that I saw him. No, he would not see me with ugly hair.

It's been about a year now since we've been dating and we live together now. I've started my hair-diet again. I got my hair cut on the Tuesday 20th so... oh wow, it's only been 3 days. Make that day 3 of hair-diet. I washed my hair only once since getting it cut. I'm on day 2 of hair-wash cycle. Next hair-wash ETA: after work on Saturday, October 24th.

Off to work~

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Well.. I haven't decided yet~ xD

Oprah once said that the saddest people in the world are those who are completely alone. I like Oprah and Dr. Phil because what they say make sense, and I don't really care if they're just TV mascots because in end anything that helps me sort things out on my own is cool with me.

This morning I woke up and put my best makeup on; I pulled on my black sweater and and my long coat (which is elegant in fashion but restricting and uncomfortable); and I wore my black slip-on shoes which have no back, so if I step in the puddle my socks are soaked. I think the reason why I did this was because I was happy, and I wanted it to show. The last few days have been pretty good for me (more so than usual, I don't ever tell people I have a bad day except for John, and the last time I told him that it was the first in a while), I was in good spirits for Brian's birthday because I didn't want to give him grief. I seem to get angry at him everyday for the most trivial things, but their underlying meanings are exaggerated in my mind and I blame him for that. But not today, I was happy.

While locking my door to leave for school this morning my neighbour (not sure which one) was walking down the hall with a camera tripod in one hand and what looked like a padded laptop bag in his other hand. He said, "Hi." Caught out of no where, but remembering that I wanted everyone to know how I felt, I belted out a "Hi!" and quickly skipped down the hall. This evening, while arriving home after a rainy walk from home, I was so upset I forgot to take the my keys out of the lock when I came into the apartment. I threw off my coat and my bag, slammed my keys onto the desk and ran into the bathroom to clean up. A loud rapping sounded from my door and I was shocked with dismay; I ran to the door and whisked it open with an unimpressed scowl, but it was the man with the camera tripod from this morning. He was now holding a bundle of rounded wooden legs, as if he had just sawed off the legs from several people's dining room tables, and he pointed to my lock and said, "You forgot your keys." I laughed and said "Oops, thanks," I jerked them out of the lock and ran inside, closing the door behind me. Inside my apartment I collapsed down onto the computer chair, relieved but disappointed at the same time: it wasn't who I thought it would be.

Thinking about my neighbour, however, I found it comical that he had seen me at my very best, in my most stylish and most uncomfortable outdoor wear, with my brightest smile and happiest tone of voice. And at the end of the day he saw me with that evil scowl, drenched in rain, standing in my unflattering Dominos uniform ready to give someone all heck. What did he think? That hot girl from 203, she was so pleasant, and here's my chance! Her keys are in her door and I have something to offer her... GUESS AGAIN BUDDY!

Very little did he know that earlier tonight, before I left work, one of the most important people to me in my life, someone who I believed I could depend on to always be there, left me hanging without even a second glance. Oprah's right, the saddest people in the world are the loneliest. Right now I could use a friend, and for 200EU I cashed in all the friends I had.

It's depressing. The rain ruins my hair all the time. Last night Brian and I went out for his birthday, we went to the Macaroni Grill. What can I say about the Macaroni Grill? The food was mediocre but everything seemed so phoney. There were fake chalkboards suspended from the ceiling with things in Italian. I don't think anyone that worked there really knew what they said. Also, the kitchen was open-walled so everyone could see in, but I'm convinced those chefs were just for show and the real ones were in the back... They just looked too happy and as if their time budget was wide. Being in a kitchen is stressful; there's no way they were real, hm.

Also we went to see Zombieland. It was a good movie and I recommend it, it's very entertaining for your heavily cliche zombie movie. And I'll admit that I was scared a few times (like when I was young and didn't get the humour, someone told me Scary Movie was a comedy).


I realized last night that one hit wonders are always so good. Like The Wallflower's One Headlight. Jakob Dylan is wow!

I'm getting my hair cut today! It has been good to me for the last 3 or 4 months, I blow dry it and it looks awesome and stays that way! I feel bad about cutting it off, but it is just so long... and I can't wait to get this ugly colour out of my hair. Before picture!




I'll take a picture when I get home~

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I was unsatisfied with you...

So I bought a site, which had a blog, which wasn't customizable or user-friendly at all. I mean... who are those people on my blog page anyways? I don't know them. They're no friends of mine.

Anyways it all cost me a lot of money and I've decided not to keep it.

Sure, I have access to 1000 e-mails with over 100GB of space, unlimited subdomains and a high bandwidth connection. But I admit, Livejournal, it was over ambitious. I just want to write down my feelings and share them with others.

So this is my apology to you, Livejournal... :(

Take me back! Please, I'm sorry, I don't know what I was ever going to do without you and......

how do I delete my previous users registered to this e-mail?!

I have to go to work now but I promise I will never leave again,

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